Astute observers may have noticed that I am not getting to blog as frequently as I once was. I'm missing it. I enjoy blogging. It is an opportunity for me to process thoughts and reflections (and hear from others who think the same, or differently), a way to record some of our family memories and a means of communication with friends online.
I suppose that the lack of blogging can serve as some sort of family record in itself - a record of the fact that I get very little time to myself these days. Or I should say, very little time to myself when I am coherent enough to string 3 words together. Having 4 small children, including a 6 month old who dislikes sleep has to take its toll on some things.
I am struggling with the parenting gig at the moment. Lack of sleep is never fun. I'm trying to make time getting to know each of my kids individually. With multiple children, it can be easy to fall into 'crowd-control' rather than parenting. All the while I'm feeling guilty that I don't have more of me to offer my kids. It is easy to forget that God is over all these things.
I'm reading a fantastic book on parenting and communication. My one qualm is that I'd like to say; "now, can you rewrite that section for dealing with 4 preschoolers?". I love the principles in the book, but find it emotionally exhausting to implement with 4 children. Sometimes I just want to scream; "get over it" instead of; "that must be frustrating for you", or "I don't have time for this right now" in place of; "It would be great if we could eat as many biscuits as we wanted wouldn't it?".
Last week I had my 4th car accident in about 18 months. God is so good, and none of us has been hurt in anyway. (Every accident has revolved around parking!). There are a few factors at play - a larger car, more driving and parking than I've ever done before (e.g. park at grocery store, then library, then preschool etc), and having kids to distract me from what I should be doing. But, for the first time, following the accident, I really felt down. For the first time I started to think maybe I really can't do 4 kids.
Having said all that, there are just too many precious moments with 4 small kids. These break up the hard moments. I sometimes try to write the precise moments on my mind - trying to remember the cute pronunciations of words, the exact intonation that made a particular turn of phrase so funny or endearing, the earnest or cheeky facial expressions that accompany particular actions. The moments are fleeting. Capturing what I can in photo and video doesn't really do them justice.
Nevertheless, here are some of our moments from the week that was:
|Mother's Day prettiness|
|Homemade fruit roll-ups. (The kids made these with Nan. We will make them again. I hope to blog the instructions soon).|
|Getting our 'Montessori' on using natural play materials.|
|Miss 5 challenges Matt to a word search.|
|Getting out and about - a frequent necessity these days. Fresh air and 'exercise' do us all good.|
|Developing a love of books|
|A Saturday morning game of 'Snap'|